Actual

Did it being with self consciousness? 

Suddenly aware of

a self

apart from the world. 

That is not to say consciousness itself. 

But an isolation of my own. 

Possession of my own thoughts,

Or the illusion of possession. 

Self consciousness that turns to

The fear of our own worth. 

Maybe our vision narrowed,

so that now we cannot see that 

our thoughts are both and not our own. 

Another is not as we are,

and is the same. 

Did it begin with a refusal of paradox?