I write to hear myself feeling.

on which end of time we stand

When the time comes,

like this rain, soft

waking from dream after
dream of
earth soaked down to the bone

Layers no one ever saw, you
feel them
down through to your bones.

And I sent small things down
this river, to our deaths or
because of death.
Calling it, claiming it a blessing.

Who could know
on which end of time we stand

as if on the bank, the brink,

the edge of the end.
When bones, tender, turn to stones
then —singing down from the sky
down this river—
time, like water comes.

31poemsMegan Jones
How many tiny deaths

This shudder travels

through veins like
the lines that lead to leaves, retreating
leaf by leaf
once shaking releasing
then, returning,
focused and budding and unfurling —
this moment
— layer over layer
warm, yet shaking all over,
relaxed so deeply into
everything focused onto
and yet tense
and yet blurred and blinded and flooded

to be this,
both the death and the birth
same in this moment,
a pain deeper, unimaginable
pleasure, still deeper,
mirroring each other in
this endless dance,
until it ends.

31poemsMegan Jones

Count your breaths.

Count the shadows your

moving body makes

along the path.


Count your days.

Count your change, dropping,

ringing like chimes,

sweet sounds confusing the chaos.


Count your blessings.

Count the leaves you

watch shudder, fall,

just out your window,

saying more about the wind than the tree.


Count all the impossible things.

Count on me.

31poemsMegan Jones
Do not chase pain (a cautionary tale)

What is it that we do,

I keep the ones who pain me

closest to my heart,

keep the ones who kill me.

We keep dying. Do I believe this

is all there is.

“But you have to.

You have to hold me, bring me close,

keep me close enough to touch
–how else would life go on,
how else would I feel any relief from

the knife I still hold in your chest.”

I draw you in, further,
and believe that somehow, I can reach

around my back and pull you
all the way through me.
If you can pass through me

then maybe we can heal.

31poemsMegan Jones
Moving around power isn’t healing

I voted today. I also cried. I also went to work doing a job I created for myself. I also recognized my privilege and ability to do all three of those activities.


I have hopes and fears for my kid, and her kids... for myself. Not only from physical injury necessarily, though that is never far from the mind. But from the inheritance of this emotional, this psychological injury that shapes our bodies already.

Moving around power isn’t healing.

But I see us, and we are healing. May we trust in what moves under the surface. May change light the way. May we let go of our domestication. May we feel free.


“My people are free.”

—Harriet Tubman


May we feel free. 

notesMegan Jones
To the ever turning world

To the ever turning world

and the hope of each new dawn


I give you the parts of my arms, sore

The taste on the backs of my teeth, gritty

The calm of my bed,


in the exact moment you wake me

kissing my eyelids with your


light like a lover’s lips, a mother’s lips

Like you’ve known love yourself

can’t help but move like love moves

even when we are burning.


You’re turning.

Your turning.

Turn, and teach me

even unto death.

31poemsMegan Jones

There was a time when

All I held between these two hands

Was soft


Did life change or

my hands


Now all I touch

crumbles like ashes of a once living thing


Are we worms,

turning, consuming, changing the world

back to food for some other life,

hiding from the light,

playing our part in the



Am I like those two eyes,

bitter, longing,

turning you to stone.


Am I like the sour boiling,

fermenting which could

in one way become your

intoxication or your sustenance,

and in another

rotting and filling you with

a smell ripe yet close to death.

31poems, poetryMegan Jones
Your questions, not your answer


My body is not a question,

but you turn each part of me into one,

then another, and another.


who, you aren’t asking me.

You form answers to the questions you make from my body.

You form them on your lips,

You form answers,

for yourself

when you walk toward or away from me.

when you tilt your head

when your mind fills with your own stories

those you made.


You are asking me,

thinking we are speaking,

still in conversation like the flow of

our blood, resonant


You are asking



Are your questions big enough

when my body is the answer.

31poemsMegan Jones

To be both and,


To be holding releasing,


Say this is more than

two variables coming together,

addition like that makes

an absence or

an infinite possibility out of

what was

to make what is or will be,

to make this,

this one.

To be a spiral, holding both no beginning and end,

and all the beginnings and ends.

And you and I together

aren’t one.

And we are.


Agreeing, believing we are agreeing

seeing, reflecting.

Becoming part of one,

Our hearts shaping each other, as one.

To be unbound.

Is that the same as free?

31poemsMegan Jones
I want movement

I have felt you with all of me.

Now all I want is inside me,


I want

movement, I want

my own blood, autonomous. I want

To take my breath away, be new.

To feel my gravity,

out from under your gaze.

I want out.

—I want movement.

Everything moves.

I am movement. Remember.

31poemsMegan Jones
A body of water

My soul was singing.

Those moments, brief and sometimes surprising, when everything’s a mirror. And the seeing blends into being. And everything, everything feels so close.

Floating in this wild body of water —salty lips, endless movement. The grieving and rejoicing meet each other, face to face.

notesMegan Jones
I tied my tongue

I tied my tongue to a lamp post

and spoke this song with

my heartbeat instead

I burned a bridge in my mind

and the flames filled my lungs first

shaking every blood cell

And what was contained

pressed against my temples

cut to the bone

and further, turned my whole body to ash

to an endless swirling

He pulled my tongue into his mouth

and used my own voice to speak love to me

I swallowed a poison in my mind

and this death came quick straight through

sweating out of my skin

And the energy rises still

up from this holy temple

under my feet,

I kissed the mouth of my enemy

who would have me turn the flame into

tension, endless pain

I took my body as a weapon,

gently folding over

muffling the explosion

that ripped through my being

to spare us all the intensity of my love.

Megan Jones